I am walking around,
In circles.
I thought I have walked long and far,
Only to find myself back in that same spot.
As if I have never walked at all.
Monday, December 13, 2010
Trapped
A room engulfed in darkness.
The lights all snuffed out.
The stench of fear and frustration still lingers.
A never-ending labyrinth.
Its dead ends threatening One's sanity.
The stench of inadequacies and insecurity still lingers.
A lonely street amidst the thick fog.
The blinding grey swirls chokes One's senses.
The stench of helplessness and hysterics still lingers.
How could One ever find the way out?
The lights all snuffed out.
The stench of fear and frustration still lingers.
A never-ending labyrinth.
Its dead ends threatening One's sanity.
The stench of inadequacies and insecurity still lingers.
A lonely street amidst the thick fog.
The blinding grey swirls chokes One's senses.
The stench of helplessness and hysterics still lingers.
How could One ever find the way out?
Saturday, November 6, 2010
心死了
亲爱的李女士，
您是否曾站在我的立场想想看，感受感受一下我心里有多么多么的难受呀？您总爱拿我和别人做比较。我永远都比不上您外边认识的孩子，使我觉得我在您眼里一文不值。人家的孩子总是多么多么的好，多么多么的优秀；而我却只不过是块烂泥巴。我无论怎样做，也无法达到您的要求，您的标准。那么如果我活在这世上对您来说是一种羞辱，我也真不明白您为何要把我生下来，再让我自生自灭呢。您不觉得这样对我来说很不公平又太残忍了吗？
既然如此，那我对您的心也就死了。请您当作没生过我这孩子。别担心，我这不是看不起自己。我一定会出类拔萃，出人头地的。可到时候，我不会归功于您。到时候，我也不想与您有任何瓜葛。我再也不要以您做榜样。我会疼惜自己亲生的骨肉，绝不让他们承受像我现在这样不幸的痛苦。
一个孤儿 上
您是否曾站在我的立场想想看，感受感受一下我心里有多么多么的难受呀？您总爱拿我和别人做比较。我永远都比不上您外边认识的孩子，使我觉得我在您眼里一文不值。人家的孩子总是多么多么的好，多么多么的优秀；而我却只不过是块烂泥巴。我无论怎样做，也无法达到您的要求，您的标准。那么如果我活在这世上对您来说是一种羞辱，我也真不明白您为何要把我生下来，再让我自生自灭呢。您不觉得这样对我来说很不公平又太残忍了吗？
既然如此，那我对您的心也就死了。请您当作没生过我这孩子。别担心，我这不是看不起自己。我一定会出类拔萃，出人头地的。可到时候，我不会归功于您。到时候，我也不想与您有任何瓜葛。我再也不要以您做榜样。我会疼惜自己亲生的骨肉，绝不让他们承受像我现在这样不幸的痛苦。
一个孤儿 上
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Assault without blood shed.
The worst form of pain you can inflict on somebody,
Is not through the use of sharp blades,
Nor through the use of metallic bullets.
But through harsh words and thoughtless acts,
One can snuff the flames of love, hope and respect for another.
One can throw another into the deepest pits of Hell.
Nevertheless, bearing in mind that
Retaliation comes not in the form of sharp blades nor metallic bullets,
But in a promise that - Revenge is a dish best served cold.
Is not through the use of sharp blades,
Nor through the use of metallic bullets.
But through harsh words and thoughtless acts,
One can snuff the flames of love, hope and respect for another.
One can throw another into the deepest pits of Hell.
Nevertheless, bearing in mind that
Retaliation comes not in the form of sharp blades nor metallic bullets,
But in a promise that - Revenge is a dish best served cold.
Dear Diary,
Fate does like to teach me a lesson now and then.
Today, I have learnt that family is no longer what I have thought it to be.
Parents are no longer a child's pillars of pride and support.
Siblings are no longer trusted confidantes.
The word 'Family' has lost its special place in my heart.
The ideals have been shattered.
I am now horribly disillusioned.
Today, I have lost a Mother.
Someone whom I have always looked upon with much respect and love.
A lady who, in my universe, is unparalleled.
Today, I have lost a Sister.
Someone whom I have always doted on, despite the harsh words.
A baby who has constantly been sheltered from the brutalities of the world outside.
Today, I shall walk the world on my own.
I shall rely on my strength and my strength alone.
Though I may have lost two of the most important people in my life,
Today, and henceforth, I will show them how well I can survive.
Yours bitterly,
Wi|dChi|d
Today, I have learnt that family is no longer what I have thought it to be.
Parents are no longer a child's pillars of pride and support.
Siblings are no longer trusted confidantes.
The word 'Family' has lost its special place in my heart.
The ideals have been shattered.
I am now horribly disillusioned.
Today, I have lost a Mother.
Someone whom I have always looked upon with much respect and love.
A lady who, in my universe, is unparalleled.
Today, I have lost a Sister.
Someone whom I have always doted on, despite the harsh words.
A baby who has constantly been sheltered from the brutalities of the world outside.
Today, I shall walk the world on my own.
I shall rely on my strength and my strength alone.
Though I may have lost two of the most important people in my life,
Today, and henceforth, I will show them how well I can survive.
Yours bitterly,
Wi|dChi|d
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